Gathering My Thoughts At The Bitter End

I have been rather confused the last few days. Without getting into detail, a series of events transpired that I was completely unaware of but somehow involve me. It is frustrating, mostly because I don't understand and because people I care about are affected by it.

As with everything, it has gotten me thinking and as I sit here in the coffee shop, I gather my thoughts.

How does information get anywhere? If two people have a conversation, neither party can ever be 100% sure that what they said was heard by the other party as what they actually said. Once words leave our mouths they are free to be skewed and interpreted in any way and there is virtually no way to stop it. Anyone can say you said something and regardless of whether that is the truth, it then just because a matter of your word against anothers.

It really is a wonder to me how people have built stable relationships and communities over time. It is a wonder how we can trust and love so implicitly when it is just as easy for someone to come and take advantage of that. I mean, it is good that we trust and love and having meaningful powerful relationships, but just as many people have completely fake relationships and trying to distinguish them could drive a person mad.

You certainly don't want to go through your entire life wondering how many of your friends and relations are real, but it is possible that many of them are based on, or completely comprised of lies. It is a very dangerous rabbit hole to go down and perhaps that is why we have trust, because otherwise we'd all be eternally stuck in the depths of that rabbit hole.

We are all in some ways, guilty of this, we all have friends or acquaintances that we aren't ourselves around, or we keep them around for selfish reasons, sometimes it is even both parties mutually using each other. Regardless of how, all of us have taken advantage of trust and it is bound to happen, but it is the people who abuse it, the people who form relationships based solely on selfish gains, those people are the problems.

Worst of all is that we can never truly know who those people are, so we just have to go on trusting and hoping that people aren't dicks to one another.

I don't know, I feel like this blog has no flow, like it makes little sense, but I at least know what I am trying to say and I suppose that is most important.

I think I have had too much coffee. . .