Tonight was a very special night for me, a night that I waited for and looked forward to for years. Still I drink alone. I toasted to the past and what might have been, the future and what will be, and the present for how it must be. Still I drink alone. A promise I was not allowed to keep, but I serve the spirit of it still.
I took a single shot tonight, perhaps the most meaningful single shot I have ever taken. It was never meant to be taken alone, a special drink designed strictly for this night. I could not let it go to waste however, I had to drink my end of the deal, but I also could not take the second shot in the stead of whom it was meant for. I toasted and tried, knocked it back and promptly cried. "Why!" The universe however, is never one for quick responses and while I wait, vigilantly listening, I will keep the spirit of this day, and all the others that are special to me, even when it brings more sorrow than joy. One for me, and one lay untouched, waiting for an undetermined future, and so tonight I drink alone.
I hope that any of the few who read this are not turned away by it, I assure you that my blogs will return to normal after this, at least for a while, but this was simply something I needed to pound out through the keys.
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