Kody

I have a large post about the past year in store very soon. It may be the most I have to write about a year in a long time, but for now I just sit alone and unable to focus.

It is 1 p.m. on the second day of 2012 and I currently feel the way I would normally feel while I sit in this chair alone at 5 a.m. They say that how you spend New Year's Eve is how the rest of your year will go and if that is the case then I do have a pretty good year in store, but right now, it feels the same.

I guess, this is really the first time I've been alone in quite awhile and maybe it is all just catching up to me, but all I know for sure is I hate feeling this way during the daylight hours even more than the night. The day usually holds it all at bay, but I think my mind is just too tired to care right now.

I find it really funny because I have been getting consistent good sleep for the first time in nearly a year and I don't feel exhausted, but my mind still seems to be turned up to 11. Everything was slower for awhile and maybe I just got used to that and so now feels so foreign. Who knows. . .

I really just feel like I need to write. I need to release ideas from my head but I just can't concentrate! Everything flies around my brain like a tornado and I can't grasp an idea for more than a few moments. Gah!

Anyway, happy new year blog! You've done well since your creation and I hope you don't get forgotten about in 2012.