Reckless Abandon

I have been doing a lot of things I wouldn't normally do as of late, but I found out tonight, that there are some things you just can't turn off.

I was at a get together with some friends, admittedly quite a bit intoxicated and the whole deal was starting to wind down. I figured I'd just stay up a while until I was able to drive home and go to sleep, but just as everything was settling, I got a very disturbing text from a very good friend.

I knew I couldn't drive, but I also felt I had to help. It was like a switch turned on in my head and BOOM! I was ready to help. I told the people I was with that I had to go, it was important, but not to worry, I wasn't driving. I left the car there and started running.

I ran about 2 miles, all the while talking to my friend in need, before I truly realized the scope of crazy I was embarking on. There simply was no way I was going to be able to run to where he was, so I turned around, very tired, still drunk and a little lost.

Eventually, I found my way to a Denny's and I sat and had coffee and food, still trying to help the situation anyway I could via the phone. I was exhausted, but I knew that had it been asked of me, I would have tried my hardest to run all the way to see him. It didn't matter, all that matter was trying to help. I went forth with good intentions and reckless abandon, then found myself in a Denny's eating cheesy hash browns and drinking coffee.

During the course of my Denny's meal I was able to successfully help my friend feel better, or at least I think I did. Then, with aching legs and a tired head, I ran another mile or so back to my car and drove home.

I sit here now, wondering if my selflessness is noble, or just stupid. It seems I will literally do just about anything to help those I care about, even when I have no business even trying to. In some ways, I guess that is good, but after tonight, I think maybe I should try to reign it in just a little. It wouldn't, after all, do anyone any good if I got myself hurt while trying to help someone else.

Still, there is a time and a place for reckless abandon.