Scatter Brained

As I stated before, my days have, for the most part, been going very well. The only real problems, aside from the other night, have been with sleep and focus. Sleep is certainly an issue I could force if I truly felt the need, but focus, that is much harder to come by.

Obviously, being tired and sleep deprived makes focusing far more difficult, but there is far more to focus than that. Focus is primarily about putting your mind to something and doing whatever that something is and my problem has been that most of what I have been focusing on, I cannot change. I have plenty of things to do, actually, as far as projects are concerned, I am pretty swamped, but I just can't seem to put more than 15 solid minutes into anything. It even carries over into work, but there it is far less noticeable.

People often ask God to grant them the serenity to accept the things they cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

Now, I know I have no issues with the courage part of that and I am pretty well stocked in the area of wisdom. Even serenity is something I have found at times, so again I find myself feeling as if I don't need help from a higher power, but my beef isn't with God, it is with acceptance.

Sure, there are situations where there is absolutely nothing you can do, you have to accept that, but more often than not, something can be done. Maybe you can't change things, but you can make someone feel better, you can add smiles and laughter to the world. You can encourage those who are great to see themselves as such and even though you can't actually fix or change the shit in peoples lives, to merely accept that is folly.

If anything, I say people should ask God for the strength to keep trying, to keep fighting, even if it seems nothing can be done. When all avenues have been exhausted, when there is no fight left, then ask for serenity.

I know, I absolutely know, that nearly everything that has held my focus is completely out of my power to change, but I can still do something. I can still be helpful and kind, I can listen and try even though it makes no difference. What I have to learn now, is how to get my everyday focus in order. I've got the long term goal focuses all pegged down, but it is the day to days that have been killing me.

I wonder what God has to say about that? Perhaps one would ask for patience? Patience to focus on the monotony of everyday, strength to push on, even when it seems hopeless and wisdom to know what is really important. . .Yeah, that sounds more like something God would do.

Right big guy? If you are real, you can obviously read this. Go on about your business, help some people in real trouble, I've got it nailed down over here.